my motivation to live?
Well, like teens this days, I’m just trying to get some attentions, and appreciations. With social media, yes. Because its easier, like a piece of cake.
But I realise something, so unnecessary.
That when I got less likes on posts and stuff, or when I saw my friends’ feeds are more ‘appreciated’ than mine, I felt so jealous. Like theres this envyness filling up my empty chest. And then I also realised that the real life I am living in is not appreciating me too. It did not give me the things I want, the love I wanted, and the respect I needed.
So I think, seeking appreciation ‘this way’ is also useless. As useless as how hard I tried and ended up failing, over and over and over.